Even in Australia

So.

It's rapidly getting better, but -- before one p.m., by the way -- today was so horrible that . . .

I had a goddamn cigarette. 

I can't exactly say that it really "helped," but it did last ten full minutes, after which I did feel quite a bit more peaceful.

For about half a second.

An hour later, I had another one.

We should probably talk about it, but I don't wanna.